So, I screwed up really bad this time. I know it's my fault this time.  And because of that I might lose something very important to be.


I really don't want to lose it. This is stupid, why do humans only realize the importance of something when there's a chance that you will lose it forever? I have never felt so much regret before. I took you for granted, I really did, but I won't anymore.


Will I even have a chance to treasure you? I still have to wait for an answer and frankly the wait is slowly killing me. Why can't you just tell me now? Even if you do break with me, why can't you do t now? Because time is slowly killing me.


Because of the past, I'm a fool in the present. You were right, I can't always have what I want, but just this once, I sincerely hope I do have it. 


I was crying in the public toilet when a girl kept knocking on the door. When I opened it, she asked if I was ok, I told her no. She kept telling me that crying won't solve anything. For 5 minutes I tried to stick to that sentence, but I started crying again, endlessly. 


Honestly, can't you just tell me the answer now? All I want to know is if you still love me.