I wish I wasn't so weak.

If I wasn't this kind of little things won't affect me, but it does. Never have I prioritized someone else before myself. I'm always the selfish one, wanting things to go my way no matter what. But that doesn't seem that way now.

In the past I always stuck to who I am. I would probably just say I will change for 5 minutes and never do it. So why am I doing it now? Haven't I always stuck to the belief that a person should never change for someone else?

I'm a short tempered person. Easily angered when things don't go my way. So why is it I feel more sad then angry recently? Why am I crying more then screaming? What the hell is wrong with me? I wish I was stronger so that I won't have to feel this pain.

All the things I have never done I'm doing it for you. I don't understand myself.