Ah~ Damn bored in school right now so I decided to do a little blogging! :3

As incredibly loud and crazy I am, I'm actually really insecure about the person that I am right now...

As a girl, not being pretty, not being as lady like, I often wonder why weren't I born as a guy instead. Life would be so much easier~ No need to worry about so much stuff.

As a gamer, I try not to thinking of the scolding I get from others much. But I feel so pathetic and think that I am not a good enough player in League. And people keep saying I get carried...

As a student, I'm really lazy. My grades aren't fantastic either right now. I want to stop procrastinating and study but... zzz...

As a member of Girlaxy, I honestly feel like I'm not half as capable as the other girls and I feel quite useless inside also... (T^T)

But recently I've been thinking a lot and a lot of stuff happened to. I can't change my physical appearance (I died also don't want plastic.), can't change my gender either. Being loud and crazy is just... my style. It's ok to change it a little but I think it's what makes me Crystal/Vinny.

I recently hit 1.7k ELO on th SEA servers. It's not really a high ELO but it's something. Something to remind me that I'm not THAT bad of a player as others say. Heck, I even carried some ranked games in solo que.

I'm gonna try my best to study just a little bit more and maybe hit that 3.0 GPA.

I can't say much for Girlaxy but I guess the only thing I can do is improve my game play and be useful only as a 'decent' player.

Ironically, my crazy and loud self is what keeps me sane. And of course, my precious friends.

11 days into 2013.