Hey.

Where is this heading.

It feels like my past all over again.

It feels like I'm heading in that direction but worse.

I honestly want to believe it won't be but there are so many things about this I can't handle, so many things driving me crazy and bit by bit I'm falling apart so far I can't keep myself together.

I used to be stronger that this but maybe too many heartbreaks make me more weak to this kind of stuff. I'm really not capable of keeping myself together, I'm really not capable of hiding all my insecurities.

I have done my fair share of crying, but even though I'm not crying as heavily now, it feels the worse. I can't take another heartbreak, I've said that countless times but it seems I'm heading for that path now. You might be strong enough to go through all of this but I'm not, I'm horribly weak. I really want to put all this behind and just leave my heart in pieces. I really want to put all this behind and just never find love again because love hurts so bad, I'm so done. Yet, I can't imagine my future without you.

I'm so tired, so tired... I can't take it any more, I'm going crazy again.